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So, it has occurred to me that I am a suppressed shop-a-holic. I don't go shopping because I don't have additional funds that I can spend on unneeded items. At one point in time, I went shopping all the time. It was when I had my first real job. I worked 2 jobs one summer and made good money. I lived at home and was a college student and since I had a scholarship, I didn't have any expenses except for the gas my car needed. I worked at a clothing store and I'm pretty sure they hired young girls so that our paychecks would go right back into the store. I bought a lot of clothes, and I mean A LOT. I am now much more responsible with money. Honestly, I think this has a lot to do with the aforementioned fact that I don't have a lot of money to begin with now. I am not one to have a credit card and buy things with money I don't have. I'm not THAT bad. I only go grocery shopping and although I recently worked in a mall for 8 months, I wouldn't walk around and browse the mall. I would just go in to work and straight out so that I would not be tempted. I was on the mission to find a plastic tumbler today though because I see them online all the time and really want one, but I can purchase one myself and decorate it at home for a fraction of the price of the online versions. I ended up not finding the tumbler, but I found myself lusting after a cute top, nail polish, lip gloss and accessories. My mom told me something that is very true: if I go out every single day to a store, I will find something I would like to buy. There is a plethora of items being marketed to me every single day. Will I die if I don't buy all the items I want? Of course not. Will I be sad. Not really. Maybe a little. Honestly though, I have so much clothes, I can basically go shopping in my own closet. I am learning to be content with what I have because honestly I don't need anything more. Although wanting things in life drives us to do and be more, I will concentrate on non-materialistic things to be driven for. Like inner peace. That's a good one.